If you do not create a life in sobriety that you like, you will relapse

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I had great week. Coming off some depression two weeks ago, I found myself in a really good spot emotionally. I learned that sometimes I just have to grind the bad days out and it always gets better. My counselor use to tell me, “you grinded out five day binges, why can’t you grind out your anxiety?” I found that to be true. So after “grinding” out a few days of being in an emotional and spiritual funk, I am left with by-product of sobriety: Which to me is living.

Waking up sober on a Sunday is the payoff for me. I remember the days when Sunday mornings was completely chaotic. I’d be wearing the same clothes as Friday night, my breathe smelled of alcohol, my armpits rubbing together like sand paper and my hair an emotional wreck. No money, no place to say since I was kicked out of my house, and no charge for my cell phone. The perfect cocktail, for….another cocktail. In my mind, I was just given a pass to keep drinking and using more. And I did.

Today’s I don’t have to live like that anymore. The by-product of my sobriety, which is a daily choice to stay clean from all substances, is recovery; a journey to who I am, or to a better person than before. And with that, I have been able to create a new life, that I don’t want to mess up with using and drinking. I strongly believe that in sobriety or in recovery, we must create a daily life we are content with. It doesn’t have to be some delusional amazing fairytale either. It can be as simple as drinking coffee on a Sunday morning, taking a walk through a trail, spending time with your son on the back porch and typing a new post, all before I go to work.

If you do not create a life in sobriety that you like, you will relapse. And it never gets better.

8 comments on “If you do not create a life in sobriety that you like, you will relapse”

  1. That’s a great sentiment. And yeah. Good for you because who wants to be sober And miserable?

    Yet. Some people are. And they don’t relapse. They just stay miserable.

    Sucks for them !! 😆

  2. Well, I don’t know what your time frame is for the life you like and the impending relapse. I made it 8 years without a substance, but then had a mental breakdown during a divorce. I stayed sober. Then I made it another 7 years without a substance, after a 7 year time of mental troubles. My life was changing, but it was not a life that I would like by any stretch of the imagination. So that’s 23 years of sobriety because I became convinced that if I drank again, I would not only die, but that I would die slowly in the grasps of demonic forces. I am starting to enjoy life now, but I am still tweaking it. God bless you.

    1. Thank you for sharing all this, I’m honored to hear you challenges and how you were able to stay sober. Right now for me, I created a life, that I don’t want to mess up by relapsing…I’m really happy today….but it took about 5 years of sobriety to finally get some daily peace in my life….and it’s still a battle some days!!!

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