Finally my 2009 degree pays-off!

I hear about these kinds of situations all the time, but even the personal experience of God giving me everything I need in life and more, still creates uncertainty. And I tell myself, everything is going to be ok and I truly believe that. However the disease of addiction is centered in the mind, and…

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Puppies Filled with Heroin, the Homeless w/Pets & Totally Addicted Radio

I don’t know why I am more likely to give money to a homeless person if they have a pet. In a recent article by the Fix.com, it reported that “liquid-heroin” was implanted into puppies headed for the United States. Pete and I go into the discussion on Wednesday’s Totally Addicted Radio Show, and it…

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If you do not create a life in sobriety that you like, you will relapse

I had great week. Coming off some depression two weeks ago, I found myself in a really good spot emotionally. I learned that sometimes I just have to grind the bad days out and it always gets better. My counselor use to tell me, “you grinded out five day binges, why can’t you grind out…

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Not every day in Sobriety is going to be fucking amazing.

The thing about my depression is that it’s physical as well as mental. I get stuck for about three days and don’t want to do shit. I literally stress myself out until I’m in dark spot in my head. And what sucks is I know the things that I think are going to go wrong,…

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Where to Draw the Line

I just got off the phone with a friend in the program. We have mutual friend that has relapsed.      “Where do I draw the line?” she ask, referring to when does caring turn into enabling. I learned this lesson early in sobriety. About three months early. I was running a sober home and…

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You wanna change the world???

The news on any platform feels so overwhelming today. It’s like politics has blended itself in every category of the media as possible, sports, Hollywood and social media. It’s hard to listen and take seriously especially when the “extremist-rant” is followed up by a money advertiser mention about Keri’s Berries. It’s actually quite comical. So I…

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Racing Thoughts: The Battle in your Head

On a good day, the “racing thoughts” come and go. On a bad day, they marinate a narrative in my mind that tell me I’m not good enough, smart enough, or I should be doing more. For me, that leads to some general anxiety and depression. When I’m in that spot in my head, there…

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Waking up Sober the Monday after Super Bowl

  I use to be the “guy” who never missed a game no matter what. Some of it was a true and innocent passion for the “big-game” storylines and hype, while a big part of it was an excuse to drink and use. When I got sober, I stopped watching sports for the first 2…

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