Super Sober SuperBowl!

Anyone feeling weird about this Sundays big game? Events like the SuperBowl can make things challenging, especially in early sobriety. This is completely normal and something not to blow off if your feeling squirrelly. My first sober SuperBowl I was in treatment and believe me, at only a week or so clean, it was pretty horrible. My second was good, we hosted, ended early and was just family. This Sunday the same, our house, family, no alcohol. I’ll probably catch a meeting in the morning and maybe an extra prayer or two. If your not there yet, I would strongly advise you to skip the party, it’s not worth losing what you got for a game or more so, to relapsing. Go Pats!!



I can guarentee one thing in sobriety!

I heard a guy in a meeting once say, “If you stay sober long enough, you will relive your life over, sober, I guarantee it.”
It’s been my experience so far, 21 months sober, that the statement rings true, if you stay sober long enough.
Feeling and experiencing emotions that I had not felt since a kid, good or bad, is a pretty cool deal. Not drinking or using over it is even better.
I am convinced that mentally, that we get to a point in our sobriety that we do go back to the point when we started using and drinking to cover up feelings that we didn’t want or know how to deal with. So in a sense, at 39, I’m mentally growing up again.
I think with given time in sobriety, one can look back and figure out somethings. Maybe what the true root of our addiction without even trying. And the exciting, cool part of it is that it just comes to us, again, if we stay sober long enough.
I can be driving, and a thought, a flash, a memory comes to me from my childhood, maybe a missing part of my past that makes a lot things suddenly make sense, or a story that I remembered one way, but it really happened anther way. Its like our brains clear up and for the first time, well for me two decades, it functions without toxins.
I dont know, its some new and weird stuff for me. And what I do know, the key is to keep doing what ever kind of recovery your doing, on a daily basis, no matter what. Spirituality, sobriety, balance, meditation, exercise, taking action and applying sobriety and recovery to all our daily affairs, on good or bad days however you define them, will get you there. That, I guarantee!

Im grateful to be here, and grateful to share!


10-1-14 Sobriety, blogging and my third cup.

So the fall breeze settles in like a jump shooter finding his rhythm on the court. Well, not really. Its still pretty hot and humid outside. The cool days will be in and out however the memories are still with me as if my last drunk and drug were yesterday. October is my favorite month as well as probably the highest risk of relapse. It is something to be concerned over but meetings and sponsor are still apart of my daily recovery so I don’t give much value to my cravings as the cool breeze hits the back of my neck making my little hairs stick out. But I am mindful.

9-24-14 Sobriety, Blogging and my third cup of coffee!

I am finally starting to settle down. My life has been out of sync for the past two weeks with the show, the press box and high school broadcasting. My major stress is money, however I have put everything in front of my sobriety and I am trying now to get my life aligned back with my recovery. Its easy to get distracted from your daily sobriety goals when life starts to speed up, especially if its going good. So I have to literally break my day down into little small goals, even at over 21 months sober. This second I need to brush my teeth, then wash my face, next decide on a shirt to wear. That how detailed I have to break my life down sometimes. Its also easy to forget the small yet priceless joys of life, like my daughter clinging onto my neck, my wife starting a simple conversation about whatever, Kenny, one of three dogs, jumping up on my lap, and feeding Colt from under the dining room table at dinner time. Typing my blog, in the morning after my paper route, while working on my third cup of coffee. So when my life gets crazy, with the good or bad, I break it down to the simple things and I realize once again I am truly grateful and blessed to start my day, sober.

Still Sober……9-8-14

So sometimes I have no idea what I am going to blog about. Like today, no clue. I have not been to a meeting in about ten days. I am going to try to go to one at noon. I also have been working on a manuscript for the better part of 3 years. A memoir about the challenges of getting out prison and basically changing your entire life, then comes along a twist of addiction along the journey. I am not sure what readers are looking for in the memoir genre, however I can tell you my story is about challenge, a journey, a story of real change, for the better good. So, not much else going on, still sober and still moving forward.

Weekly Recovery Podcast!!!

So this morning I saw this guy walking out of a hotel with a 12 pack of beer. I don’t know if he was still drinking from last night or drunk, however it reminded me of how I use to be. No matter what happens as long as I had a drink near me I was okay. I could handle life as longs as I had liquid help.

This month is also a year that my wife and I moved back in together after 18 months of separation due to my addiction. A lot has changed for the better and we are still working on our marriage but in general, life is good and we have a lot to be grateful for.

Next week’s recovery podcast I am going to talk about recovery, and when it actually started in my life.

Until then stay sober, and have a great weekend!!!face