Tag: sobriety

Waiting

My notebook is so slow. Like, “I’m glad my life doesn’t depend on it slow!” I uh, decided not to apply for the delivery service job. The hours are perfect, and the days are Monday through Friday and we do need the extra money, however…I just dont feel like working every single day. So I

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“I’m not going to lie…”

The homeless-old man ask me if I could spare some change. “I’m not going to lie, I’m going to buy a beer with it,” he said proudly. In a way, I respected that, and in a way, I was jealous. Drinking first thing in the morning use to be a trait of mine. I pulled

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Guilt, I think?

So I’ve been feeling weird lately. And at nearly ten months of sobriety I am realizing that there is something wrong. There is something not letting me move forward, and lately I have been feeling numb. I am starting to ask myself, why am I not happy? Well yesterday I ran into a high school

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What I do, when I feel like using and drinking.

AAAHHHHH! Today is one of those days that I don’t need an excuse to drink or use. Today is one of those days when I don’t feel like calling my sponsor or going to a meeting. Today is one of those days that I could easily throw over nine months of sobriety away along with

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Nine Months- Living in Sobriety

So a couple of days ago I hit nine months sober. It felt really good and I am proud of myself. It is a great accomplishment after twenty-three years of using and drinking. I do understand that I am no way cured, I will never be. I will always be an addict and alcoholic and

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Seven Months today!

So, today is seven months sober. It has been a huge transition from my life back in July 2011, when I started this recovery journey. It has been a complete life change, that at times was not easy. It certainly did not happen over night, however I am starting to smile a little bit more

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What’s Really On My Mind? – Moving Back

In a few days my wife and I will be moving back in together after nineteen months of separation. And YES I am nervous! Going up in front of the judge nervous. Our house has been rented out for the past year and a half to her sister. Last weekend her family and I moved

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